Incorrigible

Lets face it, some things never change. Like I how I still blatantly depart this earth (no, I'm not dead. Yet. If that was what you're thinking. Sorry to disappoint some of you out there) to reside or perhaps, preside, in my fantastical realms within the limited boundaries of imagination found in the various games I play. Be it roaming in the realms of Oblivion, imagining myself as a famed, football manager grabbing quadruples with impunity or ruling a civilization from the age of stones and woods to lasers and, well, more lasers. As the day passes, I feel more and more lost to the touch of humanity, the reality of student life, and perhaps, the meaning to live?


The resolve and the determination to bounce back from mid year disappointments just fades away like the wind. Strong when it comes, gone after a moment. Some things just never change....never change....


Form 4 . It gets. On. Your. Neck.
Form 5. Mutilates. You. Entirely.
Form 6. Shreds. You. To. Meaty. Humanoid. Dust.

This IS upper secondary life. Summarized for viewing...pleasure.

Piss out.

Chicken scare again, the weathers humid. And I am getting humid as well. Apologies in advance if you ever catch me in a somewhat fowl foul mood.

Dark redemption, First and Final.

Additional Mathematics : 65%
History : 68%


Not good.
Not good enough.
Not good enough when roughly 80% of the (super) students in my class strikes 80% (for add maths) or 70% (history) and above. And even 90+ for Add Maths. With one fella getting 98%. I just can't understand them.
(Or rather, perhaps they just can't understand me and my (uber) crappi-ness when it comes to intricate maths, remembering facts, and possibly, my feeble scientific knowledge)

Even getting this:

EST : 86% (so-called "highest" in class)
and
Modern Mathematics: 89%


...doesn't change the fact that I'm still hundreds of acres, miles, kilometres, whatever, behind them. Lagging like a slow old cow chasing after a cheetah.


And, theres still Physics and Chemistry, among others, to chew upon. Will be getting my "death warrants" in due time.


And so its time to change. Even though past records of my attempts to do so are not in my favour, but I have no choice, but to do so.



My First and Final chance of redemption (for form 4, at least) comes in October (approximately). Crunch time.





The.Darker.Inner.Mind.Speaks.
Why am I talking about myself now?
Like I have anything else to blog about?
I didn't even have time for the newspapers during holidays.
Can't blame me for History, was sick the whole damn week before exams.
Can't blame me for Add Maths, I just don't like it in the first place.

Work all night, He does.

"All the night" the Lord was working,
Working in the tempest blast,
Working with the swelling current,
Flooding, flowing, free and fast.

"All the night" God's children waited-
Hearts, perhaps in agony-
With the enemy behind them,
And, in front, the cruel sea.

"All the night" seemed blacker darkness
Than they ever saw before,
Though the light of God's own presence
Near them was, and sheltered o'er.

"All the night" that weary vigil
Passed; the day at last did break,
And they saw that God was working
"All the night" a path to make

"All the night" O child of sorrow,
Can you not your heartbreak stay?
Know your God in darkest midnight
Works, as well as in the day.

The Chronicles of Life and Death : Day 9 & 10

I'm still in a gaming mood (not in blogging mood) and that means I'm just summarizing the hopeful event(s) which turned dour...
(not that theres any surprises here)

Day 9
Enlightening prospect: Add Maths 1, Bio 3

Add Maths 1: Turned out pretty...not-so-bad, (at least on Add Maths' standards) a few blips here and there (which is to be expected)

Bio 3: Nothing short of, hmm, appalling. Messed up procedures for Q 2 (was it?) but heck I didn't really care much in the end.


Day 10
(The day in which time came almost to a standstill)

Add maths 2: Sucks. Full stop.

Chem 3: Not so sucky, but still sucks.

See how I like to speed up time?

Day 9 remains permanently undecided while Day 10 is, well, you CAN assume, can you not? X)


Final Verdict
Life : 4
Death.... 5




I should've seen the impending, inevitable doom creeping up to me from the very beginning....

The Chronicles of Life and Death : Day 8

This, was yesterday

Boring session: Chem 1, ONLY
(for me anyway)

-Chem 1: Chem 1 on its own isn't really a daunting prospect. Its the time before it that really made me as excited as staring at a blank wall (or one with pink polka dots). Felt like collapsing on the back of my chair with my head dangling during the paper. That was how bad it was. For my collapsing body anyway.

Verdict: Life

After day 8,

Life: 4 ; Death: 4



Add maths coming up. Survival is not guaranteed.

The Chronicles of Life and Death : Day 6 & 7

Well, this is called being lazy

"Day 6" was suppose to be 2 days ago but at that time lacked any mood whatsoever to hit the "log in" section. So yea shall make up for lost time in this post. Day 7 of exams is today anyway, in case any of you lost track (in which I don't really blame you)

Day 6

Brain-crackin' session: Physics 1 & 2
Descriptions:
- Physics 1 : Damn I was hopeful for this.

-Physics 2 : %&#! it its all screwed up. I'm damn confident I'll get a big fat z.e.r.o for one whole experiment. The best I can ever hope for is an A2.




.Dam.mit.

Death is the answer.

Death (+1)

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Day 7

(another) Brain-crackin' session: Moral
Description
- Moral : Well (applicable to lower sec students) don't go thinking "alah...its moral only, sap sap sueh punye. Close 3 eyes also can do wannn" (insert chinese-like tone)

Bloody hell.


The next best thing to a sledgehammer when it comes to cracking brains. And I mean it literally.
Even memorizing 7 "Bidang Pembelajaran (BP)" came to little, if any, avail.
(on a sidenote, those 7 BP's amounted to 36 "nilai" or moral values. Complete with definitions. All memorized. Most wasted. @#%$)


Days couldn't get better, could they?


After days 6 & 7,
Life : 3 ; Death: 4




**For your dear information, I decide to place the day that I had Biology as "Life", due to its somewhat "Okay-ness". Especially when compared to the likes of History, Moral, Chemistry and Physics. Oddly, I found BM this time tolerable.



Chee-chah everyone. Freak times 'bout to begin. A minor skirmish of Chem 1 tomorrow while next week theres Chem 3 and....


add maths.


DeathClock Prediction:
Survival : 666-1
Biting the dust : 1-666



My. This sure IS a bright ray of hope.

The Chronicles of Life and Death : Day 5

Hohoho I'm back
And nobody's interested


Anyway as promised...


Day 5

Torture sessions : Bio 1, EST 1, Bio 2
Description
- Bio 1 - Facts twirled around my head. Some even defected and left permanently, leaving a big gaping hole in my memory banks. Dilemmas aplenty. And folks, this is only paper ONE

- EST 1 - You can call this a breather. Or a mind strain. It was both to me. Its not Bio, thats one. But then, its EST. Simple comparison? I shall elaborate further. EST 1 has an ESSAY. A report which deviates from standard reports (geddit?). Not entirely pleased with how it went, but heck, thats life. Especially for a student.

- Bio 2 - If dilemmas were aplenty in paper 1, this is, well, so to say, even sweeter. 'nuff said. Still, I managed to write 3/4 of a page only, and ONLY on this:
"Describe how the body temperature is regulated in the body...." (12 marks)

Something like that. And its end-product was a 3/4 page just on that.

Verdict : Undecided. I still feel confused on this. Shall update in a matter of days.

After day 5:

Still the same,

Life: 2 ; Death: 2 ; Undecided: 1

lol?